UnTitle 93

unexpated term of life

i'm survive once more

where are you angel of death

i'm out of luck already

take me
P.L.E.A.S.E

UnTitle 92

i'm dun want to cause any trouble

not because i'm scared or what..

it just

i dun want to involve anyone

for the trouble that i did..

avoiding it is the best way..

no! no!

it no like i'm running away

from the problem..

i just solve it

before it become more worse to handle..

i dun want to take any risk...

i know..

GOD never gave the problem to the person

if HE know the person can't handle it..

but i can't find the best solution

for all this thing..

what i make

what i do

will just end with a mess..

did i cruel to myself?

did i done something wrong to other people?

to many question fill my mind..

to many problem to many puzzle to solve..

but some how i can't rid it from my mind..

it make me can't think well..

that make me had to pretend

in front of people that i'm okay..

great! it work..

but somehow it make me thinking..

how long it takes?

how long i can stand with this pretending stuff?

 it make me feel tired from it..

i need replacement..

to many word for describe it..

all i need after all is rest for awhile..

tired, tired, tired....

UnTitle 91

sometimes 

i pretended to be normal

but it gets boring

so

i go back

to being me

to be a looser back

i'm looser and i proud

hell yeah!

it so beautiful become a looser

UnTitle 90

i got no reason why..

should i keep this thing 

or maybe i should throw this away

yeah i should listen to my old friend

"HOPE IS DANGEROUS"

no no no!

it more dangerous that cigarette brand HOPE

cigarette just infect our lung and bla..bla..bla..

but this thing i need to ride off

it so painful..

hope the thing that not belong to you

damn! it feel like stepping on shit..

anger, embarrassing and all the shitting stuff..

i know..

i should not say that but...

*sigh*

got nothing to say

i feel stupid for all of this

what should i do?

NOTHING!

forgetting it meaningless

i dun know how long it take

for not over my own limit..

i know who am'i and i know

 i should't to cross that line..

forget me
and back to him

i wish 

one day when i woke up

i dun remember anything and anyone..

hiding something inside its painful

it eating myself from inside..

CURSE U FEELING!

UnTitle 89

noi really don't think sothat you think i can't..be incapable of being on my own
noi really don't think sothat i would for a secondlet you back in though my door
i have spent many nightseven when you are by my sidei shed tears i could't dry
but i should thank youfor taking my blindfold off nowi ain't jaded no moreand i take pride in being the onethat said goodbyethat could only meani am meonce more
you would turn your head the other watso you won't have to listento what i have to sayyou assume that i needed youbut you did't realize thati needed no one but myself
lalalala....

UnTitle 88

i tot can dreamed about you

but i'm wrong

I dreamed the other girl

i wondering why not you?

i thinking about you

before i had that dream

but i seem happy in that dream..

yup happy with that other girl

laughing, joking and lot of chit chat..

even i dun remember most of that dream

but...

damn i forgot what happen next -_-

ohh..

there was a robbery at that store

the store where our bus stopped..

i just stunned in front of that store..

i dun know what to do..

then...

-_- damn! i forgot again..

ohh...

when the robber gone

i came back to the bus again..

she already disappear..

it that mean when i got into a trouble

people will leave me behind?

or just girl leave me behind?

maybe it just a dream right?

i should trust this dream?

or just facing the reality? 

UnTitle 87

i already wish 

not to cry anymore

why suddenly 

i crying for something i dun know

damn tear!

stop it!

UnTitle 86

how can you feel to be proud?

with this temporary world

how does all of this gonna disappear and gone?

leave yourself behind

how does when it's time come?

the time stopped but you still dun realize

still got a way for you to return?

for repeated the past

world filled with ornate

all and everything that exist 

will came back to Him

when the time was called

charity was only true friend

when the time stopped

a true friend will stay deserted

UnTitle 85

illusion?

trick?

or maybe just call it pretending

did pretending is same as cheating?

IDK

but 

im good at pretending

maybe if pretending is a subject

i can get good score for it..

maybe can get A+ or A-

for me

pretending is simple thing to do

but

what is pretending?

looked happy but the fact is grieving

that call pretending right?

looked stupid but the truth is otherwise

also pretending to right?

I like pretending

so nobody know 

what im thinking

what im feeling

what im know

that why pretending is important to me

even it same as lie

but i dun lie

I'm just pretending OK

i'm looser 

that all

UnTitle 84

Dun know how to say

but but but

did i happy?

did i sad?

so many fucking thing happen

at that place

so many fucking memory to

but but but

i love to say this

"GOOD BYE FUCKING POLY"

UnTitle 83

maybe you do not know

but

sorry 

I keep it close

so no one realize

sorry

I dun look your eye

so i can lie

sorry

I fool myself

so u cant turn yourself

sorry

I dun want mean it

so you can forget it

I'm sorry

I should not fall for it

but i dun close it enough

i can't lie for it

and i just not good actor

for fooling myself

but i just want you to forget

who i'm

sorry again for the last time

because i'm to stupid

I should know my limit
but
it much fun to know you
that's why
next time i will say

"sayonara"

   

UnTitle 82

I just need to sit down and wait

one day i will know who I'm

one day i will know what i want to be

one day i will know what i can done

one day i will know what will i do

but

one day i will realize I'm dreaming after all

and there is no day for me to know

so may i just forget my dream

or may i just go die?

if i had given the option 

i will just choose to die

because i dun want 

burden anyone

troublesome people

R.I.P 
HERE LIES KAPAL TERBANG
"the hopeless person on this earth"

Born 10 Nov 1990 - 9 Dis 2012

LOL

UnTitle 81

I like to sleep

dreaming is everything to me

it so fun

when i can become anything i want to be

but

i hate when wake up

it remind me 

that i can't achieve anything

anything what i want

maybe i should eat sleeping pill?

so how many i should take?

1 or 2

maybe 1 bottle

what could be wrong with that

maybe i can dream forever after that

dream

or

reality

or

dream

or

reality

damn!

I HATE YOU REALITY ! 

UnTitle 80

for the first time

I dun know what to say

it that normal?

for been a human being?

question mark again -_-

it that really i'm just a human?

LOL

what the fucking question it that!

if i'm human

can anyone prove it to me?

somebody?

anyone?

lalalalala

just joking :P

UnTitle 79

now it looking good

even social page already got error

thank god you save me

look like I dun need it for this period  

how you know?

damn!

why did I ask that question

sometime knowing nothing is the best choice
but i'm fucking high

Lalalala

life sometime is so wonderful right
but sometime it full of shit
guess what!
it just a toilet bowl when something full with shit