MAN

dono what else will happen
It very fast
It make so speechless
Never thought it will happen like this
Never ever thought it will end like this
Am i just fcuking misery ?
Hoping it just a test for us..
Okay.. Maybe it's for me i think..

It to speachless
N i cnt do anything for it
Except praying for god it was a dream
Maybe a nightmare..

Did i done something very ever wrong
This time?
It fcuking spining in my mind
I can't accept tht truth
Maybe this fcuking hand can typing
Like a fcuking good deed

Am i not good enough?
Am i just a nerd?
Am i just a loser?

Sometimes it feel like not fair..
Why me? Why don't choose them
They are so fcuking bad than me..
They even not remembering U all the time..
Why choose me to take this burden
I can't except tht reality
So many fcuking bad guys out there
But why n why must me?

The reality it so crule..
Even U wanna giv a test to me..
Please god don't so hard for me to handle
Indeed im maybe not so good enough..
At least I trying my best for U

Not because im can't accept
the fate tht has be written..
But.. Why test me on this?
It so many thing tht can be done..
But why must always this?

Every time it nver be last
Almost every bond i made
It just end just like that
Yes patient..
Until when?
I just tired with all of this..

Even my head
My mind
My body
Already tired
And can't accept
The memory of my past

So many time i need through this
Please let it be the last
Even my feeling already fading
My emotions almost empty..

Sadness
Smiling
Laughing
Loving
Caring

It almost none to me now
Not because i not a grateful..
It because i fadeup
I just became a zombie
Person with no brain afterall
No heart..
Nver want to hurt anybody feeling
Because i knw how it feel
It painful..

Please god end this..
I begging for U everyday for this right..

Im scare