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kind of bored now..
even this fucking blog are just
like a facebook..
why the hell i need to update all the time?
oh shit.. *sigh* okay2..
stop this swearing stuff..
it kind of bullshit you know?
trust me i knew.. sort of the secret..
hidden scene? hmm~
what about that? wish i could tell..
but damn no! zip my mouth..
and yell NO to all !!

shame on me..
shame on you..
shame on people..
shame.. shame.. shame..
it will stuck by KARMA



 i will never make same mistake twice..
well.. you know.. i will make it more..
just to be sure.. it worth or what..
mistake are proof that.. im always trying..
isn't that right? ohh~ yeah~
it never be better than this feeling..
i will make sure of it..*rubbing hands*

not surprised when people leave..
but actually it more surprising when..
they still want to stay..
maybe they got good intend or...
maybe not.. so it fucking lie?
and just fucking pretending? *gosh*
it been fooling around all this time?

but..

i'm thankful to all of them..
all if who said NO to me.. because
of them.. i did it myself.. and
if some of them absent during my struggle..
so dun fucking expect to be present
during my success... oh yeah it good..
it fucking REVENGE time..

don't talk to me again.. only when
you are fucking bored..bcoz.. i'm not
here to entertain you...
ohh~ i'm sorry..
i forgot i'm only exist.. when
you need something right...

don be too hard on yourself.. there
is plenty of people willing to do
that for you.. trust me.. bcoz i dun know..
hahahaha~ if you dont like the style
just turn you head and walk away..
simple as that.. dun turn around again!!

i had to smile and act like nothing is
wrong sometime.. it called dealing with
shit and try to stay strong..

at that day..
i would happy to take a bullet for you..
trust me.. now i happily to pull the
trigger myself.. cool story..



i not mad.. if you were on fire..
and i had water.. i just drink it..
just to make sure..

*sigh*
i need to stop this again..
every day updating blog..
what the fuck is going -_-//
stop and stop this bullshit..
FULLSTOP !!

the best way to stay out of trouble
is just take a nap.. so i did it..
every time if possible..

fucking hell i will stop!!
NEVER ! EVER ! and NEVER?
*gosh* im so cruel :3

run out of idiot thing..
it always come with new thing..
so far so good.. idiot is the new term..
just follow your lazy heart..
yeah! i bet i can follow it...

trust.. there is no such thing..
i already ate it.. it don taste so good..
now it call lie.. but i still need to cook it
just for awhile.. wait the moment..
but if you see trust again.. just
say hello for me.. TQ

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tot game can be enjoy..
no harsh or anything that stupid..
until now.. argg..
now it feel awkward..
just because same joke..
damn.. had to do that..
so GM dun ban la..
just acting like we dun set it up..
cant take a joke?



now it been frustrating..
cant talk with him now..
not just in virtual world..
even at the real world i had
to zip my mouth for awhile..
can see what will coming..
*sigh*
poor.. poor.. guy like me..

"i'm look like an idiot"
but.. it seem more stupid la
if we fight just because of this game...
what the point of that?

i just more become this..

make some stupid move..
and people can enjoy it..
what a fucking best move you
got there... good luck with that bro..

maybe i should keep my stupidity...
no one deserve it better than myself..

bye ! oh bye ! oh fucking bye !
good luck with the same story..

but i love to be stupid..

apa ! apa liat2 ! minta tumbuk?

actually my post was not about you or
anyone of you you you !
but if the shoes fit.. feel free to lace that
bitch up and wear it..

watch me.. i will end this..
once for all...

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sejarah mungkin berulang..
oh~ oh~ la~ la~ la~
candy crush pn makin susah..
*sigh* why you become so so hard?
2 day still not pass this fucking lvl..
yo! ada cheat ka?
i want infinity life.. so so..
i can pass easily ??



oh~ ee~ ou~ la~ la~
crazy.. be crazy.. like crazy..
more crazy.. always crazy.. as crazy..
do crazy.. join crazy.. feel crazy..
want crazy.. super crazy.. weak crazy..
and all the crazy it can be..
hey ho! it me.. it always be me!
dun copy me! you fucking asshole!
now.. now..

susah sangat ka nak cakap?
it very simple la! not hard as it seem..
wakakaka~ hmmm~
let me guess.. but.. who are you!
why the fuck you reading this?
hey! get out.. you not belong at here!
get out! get out! move you ass from here!

don make me kick you out!!
okay just kidding.. i'm not really kick you..
just want to punch your face.. yup..
with all my might and my strength..
so choose.. which hand did you prefer?
right or left hand?

oh fucking life..
but the best part is..
your life just create by a fart..

MY BEST FRIEND - PART V

there is no story this time..
i just fucking lazy to tell
and my hand dun want to typing..
so this is the end for the story...
okay?

let's make this a short story..

he with me at poly..
he become uncontrolled.. so he fuck up..
his life is miserable.. so serabut..
because the fucking money?
what you think? paying rents..
then you cant effort a bus to go poly..
when the part of eating.. what can he buy?
with RM110 per month? that is his pocket money + rent money...
dude.. think... take a bus to poly cost RM2..
so how to pay rent? how to eat? how to smoke?
better dun pay rent.. dun got to poly..
enjoying the life while he can be...
so he fuck up with poly..

that the end of the story...
he leave me when things start to change...
not because he run away..
but god give him second change...
so he leave without goodbye..
and make me walk this world alone again..
no bad stuff to enjoy..
no friend to hang out.. it fucking alone...

and that why i dun need a friend...
that why i just like to walk alone...
people just making things worse..
that he said to me.. world are not big for you..
i'm done here and you keep up for me..

sem5 i become a gamer..
because he leave me and i dun want
to take another risk.. finding friend..
gamer.. where the world for alone people..
it really enjoy than wasting with people who
don care much for you..

okay the END...

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okay i'm blowing up..



i still not understand.. why?
maybe i'm to obsess.. to over react..
over thinking.. that cause
brain over functioning.. it blow up..
it that mean i can't think rationally?
okay.. i can see why..
because of this.. it make me act just
like 12 years old kids.. stupid !
so childish..

then it done..
from now on.. i will act serious..
stop fooling around.. it worse..
it make me look like an idiot..
people dun like idiot right?

but still.. i'm overreacting..
that will make me lose ..
yeah lose and lost to someone..
i should keep it hard..
so no one can break it..
even myself can't undone the chain...
yes! i have been chain..
why did i pretending it?
why must i keep it lie..
hey you! you had been chain..
stop pretending you can't see it..
that the bond we had made..
that the promise right?

there is a game...
we will play this game...
but someone must had to lose it right?
this not the forever game..
when it give name "GAME"
it must have a loser in it..
but the game we play are dangerous...
when we got the loser..
it game over already..
someone had to go away before..
it become more worse that ever..

yup.. maybe it look easy..
the game start very well..
no one make mistake right?
but at the middle of the game...
when we got to face another truth..
when we add more player on this game..
it done to other player..
it effect the game.. well it just effect the player to..

some player dun realize the problem..
but it maybe to late for knew it..
boommm... GAME OVER dude!
problem solve.. or problem worse..

firstly i just want to cont. the last story..
but.. my hand dun have the mood to
done this.. even my fucking brain stop awhile..
this is the first time i typing while thinking...
usually.. my hand react fast than my brain..
this time is different...
maybe it just because lack of smoking..
my brain dun get enough chemical...

nah.. i need to limit myself already..
stop wasting the money.. it dun grow up
at the tree right? still it made from paper...
gosh.. i can still do it..
need to walk away.. lets be forgotten..
be a legend.. keep up your track..
leave no trace...

when time is killing your side..
it never been happy.. it pain.. just
pain that cant be erase.. it like
permanent marker that leave some scar..
but it not like a scar.. it just some empty hole..

i like to sing.. even my voice ware horrible
but i like to answer the fucking lyric on the song..

lalalalala~

i confess it's all true...
i'm a mess.. what a fool
now what do i do?

lalalalalalala~

you think i still want you?
after all you put me through.. you think
i cant walk away? and find someone
better for me? just take your overactive ego..
shrink it down like a mosquito... loving you
was such a chore.. til i got bored.. now
i don't think about you anymore...

lalalalalalala~

hello~ hello~
i bring you picture from the man
you used to know.. give in let go..
to the image that made you
feel at home.. now it's funny how
we find out.. how age can change a man...
confused but now i understand...
hello~ hello~
maybe i'll just say goodbye..

lalalalalalala~

i dont like to being wrong..
i wont forget the way you made me feel
i wont regret running away from here..
you think you see the world?
well you see nothing.. time is only make
it worse in the end.. so i'll say goodbye again..
now its there to see.. you've forgotten me..

lalalalalalalala~

every song got meaning right?
but it all pointing to me..
that such an asshole.. oh please..
don compliment me.. i just
want to say good bye..
but i'm tired with this word..
it got no meaning to me already..
tata~

i just hate you very much...
just like i hate lag game..
hahahahahahha~

i fucking tired right now..
don come up with me..
i will kick your ass who ever you are..
this time i really mean it..

dude i don know who you are..
but i will find you and i will kill you..
it just a joke right?
okay.. you will get the joke..
and i will make sure you stop laughing...

and to the GOOGLE...
stop viewing my blog!!
i can see you.. what a lame using MSIE 7...
really? internet explorer? use GOOGLE chrome la..
can you GOOGLEing it right? TQ :)

such a bad day...
such a lonely day.. and it is mine..
it's a day that i'm glad i survive..
piss off your jerk !
you ruin my life over and over again..
don give me that face!
fucking hell no! and stop bullshit around..
you make me sick as hell.....

oh.. creadit to SR-71 and SOAD...

i will walk alone by now..
just to make sure that i worth..
and i will not regret with any of
my decision right now..
so don you give any fucking order to me..
maybe i will listen...
of course i talk to myself..
sometimes i need expert advice...
and it worth that other people mind...
then get off your hand from me..
i dun need you!

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what the use anyway?
it mean nothing at all for them..
yup.. it them..
they know nothing at all..
or it just them who pretending..
pretending for acting dun know..
hmm... it bit too much confusing..
anyway.. it confusing..

can see what they want..
but it feel i'm just nothing for them..
i'm useless to them..
yeah! useless is always useless..
why need to determine that..

nah.. i know..
knew that i just a tool...
never mind..
i already used to it..
it feel horrible all the time..

i learned the hard way that i
cant always count on people
to respect my feelings.. even
if i respect theirs.. *sigh*
it fucking unfair at all..
i will never ever lose my self again.. while
trying to hold on for someone
who doesn't care about me..
yeah..
i;m sorry if you dun like my honesty..
but to be fair right..
i dun like your lies.. that all..

sometime.. better to be alone..
so nobody can hurt me..
hey! hey! ho!
there is no sometime for me
i need to keep it as "always"

okay sometime..
nice people have to be bastard right?
every once in a while..
just to keep sure that they also
need to be appreciate what they done..
nahh... it bluffing..

choose me or lose me..
i'm not a backup plan you know?
and definitelyyyyy not
second fucking choice..
but.. but.. but..
maybe one day..
i will be what you need...
hey! it still got but right?
i dun wait too long..
because the day you want me..
maybe  the day i finally give up..
hahahaha~
it funny to say like this..
make me feel like an fucking asshole..
lalalalala~

to be fair..
i'm also a human..
even i hate human.. but..
i also got heart and feeling to
take care.. so fuck off
go away from my fucking heart..
gosh! almost got heart attack here..

but after all...
i have learn to give...
not just because i have..
but because i have known
the feeling of not having..
so i want to give up already..
just for you all..
muahahahaha~ (it an evil laugh)

just like a usual..
i use to give and give up to
some people who deserve better
better than me.. :)

woah!
what the bluffing i add here...
i just want to cont. story from the last entry
not to bullshit around... hais~

MY BEST FRIEND - PART IV

it may the bad day..
i not just story what he tell to me..
but i can make a story that what happen to him..
not i want to make up a story..
it because he with me.. same school with me..
that all i can tell.. not all the detail..
lalalalaa~ hmm~

let's start at form5 now..
when the shit happen..
you know... dun enough money..
just sitting by and sleeping at the class..
oh man.. he just same as me..
we both cant go to canteen
just like other student..

when break time..
we just running around like crazy dog..
run to "dewan makan" hahahaha~
it got free drink right..
or if to lazy and fatty as to go..
we just sleeping.. it kind fun..
hey friend.. because of you..
sleeping already become my habit..
thanks to you!!

day to day..
we keeping up like that..
until his fucking idea come up..

"why don we sell cigarette?"

"are you fucking kidding right?"

"so are you fucking scare?
you want to keep up just like this?
ending your self sleeping all the time?
dun forget.. you need money right?"

"ya.. i know that.. but it to risk, what
happen if warden find out?"

"if warden find out.. you burn! that
the risk we had to take.. do you want to
escape every fucking thursday? just because you
cant effort drawing book?"

"ya.. ya i know.."

"okay.. just shut up and let's sneak out buying supply"

so we go out and buy 2kotak premium..
it funny just to buy that 1 thing...
1 for our and 1 for selling..
ah.. hancur juga BI ku.. kakakakaka~

then day after day..
business semakin maju...
so far so good... but...
that time.. we dun like to mingle with
other form5..
not because we arrogant or what..
we just want to feel calm and peaceful
no fucking fight.. no bullying and so on lah..

better hang up with junior..
we respect them and they respect us..
simple and easy right...
but they also fucking annoying junior
yang mo tunjuk2 taiko kunun.. bikin panas..
so it easy to deal with them..
it need fucking psycho..
he was the best.. mcm pakar...
kesian juga la tengok muka tu budak
kana psiko sikit -_-

because he so close with form4..
all the trouble their had they told him
so almost all form4 know him..
not because he strong or what..
i also dun know why.. but..
he always settel they problem..
yeah.. almost all there problem involve fighting..

"begaduh.. begaduh.. begaduh..
macam buduh ja aku tgk kmu ni"

that the word he always say...
but he never intervene...

"begaduh la kmu puas2.. yang lain..
kalau mau masuk campur.. makan dulu
penyapu ni.."

when they start fighting..
we start buisness.. selling ciggt..
always.. sold out stock lah..
if there were fight...

but i cant tell anything anymore..
because......... i'm not good for make any story..
it look like bullshit ni..
no plot.. no header.. no cover story..
sorry la.. ak x pandai kasi cerita...
hahahahahahaha....
budu ba aku ... sory lah kmu.. kmu.. kmu...
bye....

if you are trying to turn me
into someone else.. it easy to see..
i'm not down with that.. i'm not nobody fool..
if you are trying to turn me into
something else .. i have seen enough and
i'm over that.. i'm not nobody fool..
if you want to bring me down..
go ahead and try.. lalalalalalala~

ohh abbey dawn.. where are you??
but.. see you again...
gosh.. it just a dream... kakakaaka

bye again..

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seriously dun know what to say..
mean to starting this entry..
just want to cont. MY BEST FRIEND story..
but.. but.. but..
to shy to tell :3
it seem to awkward..
then back then back..
uhh~
what did i saying...

but it funny when someone just
texting me.. come on girl..
i did told you that
you're got the wrong number..
but.. but.. you still dun want to listen??
poor that guy.. maybe he get the blame for me..
coz.. i just pretend to be him.. lalalala..
life is cruel so do i..
it fantastic.. playing with people..
but.. it seem i just like an asshole -_-
sorry guys.. not my problem..

this world is just an illusion..
but i suffer with this fucking illusions..
it make me crazy like a shit..
not just like a shit ..
i been as a shit.. oh shit..
huh? you call me?
shit is my name.. so what?

STOP !
stop this bullshit..
let's talk about my old friend..
cont. the story..

MY BEST FRIEND - PART III

oh man.. still part III..
i tot i already more.. more.. and more..
nah.. i just wondering that
can i still remember what he saying..
what he told to me..
i'm just fucking forgettable person..
damn you brain.. function please..

hmm...
let's just story when he at form4..
yeah.. form4.. that the time i with him..
so fucking awesome that time..

that the time when he start to drink..
you all know what kind of drink right??
fucking yeah.. this is an asshole story..
just click red button X at the right corner..
if this is kind of boring.. okay?
still dun get it right??

that the time i and him learned to gamble..
dengan kata lain berjudi lah..
money oh money...
lalalalalalaa~ i love money..

yeah people just say..
that drink is just wasting money..
but for him.. it everything..
everything just start with that drink..
he said..
"you think you can survive on this world alone?
we just need a friend to get along
would you join with me?"
that the time i join him..
together we rule on our world..
he start to get a friend with this drink..
i just see him get along with them..
yup i can't do anything for him..
i just too weak to interrupting..
nothing that i can done for him..
better just let him go with his own world right?

his friend ask him..
"you got money?"
"i'm broke too.. i'm hungry"
okay.. that the only thing he remember..
then he with his friend go to other school..
not for bullying or "membodek" la..
but steal some money..
together gether la they stealing..
just hit the jackpot that time..
coz .. it the week when SPM student
want to pay they SPM fee..
so hasil dorng bagi2...

but i ask him.. why?
why you did this?
"can you survive with the money you parent give?
can you survive with this RM10 for 2week?
even food at canteen are expensive..
i cant effort that everyday..
maybe i can stand for 2-3 couple day..
really? even i had to steal food from canteen...
you also do it right??"

so i just silence my self..
because what he said was right..
and i just try to avoid it..
but still i had to survive either..

yup..
money is everything..
who said money can't buy anything?
i just dun want to talk about it..
coz.. i already talk about money right?
dun know which entry..
but still when you got money..
everything is yours..
even people you can buy easily..
who dun want money?
fuck them who say dun want !

even money can make people blind..
it that right?
money can make people happy..
how happy it can be?
maybe money is everything..
but money can't make a thing last..
when you broke..
who will see you as you are?
no one!
family is just you got..
they will stand at your side..

okay lah..
just forget what i bluffing here...
you all see nothing..
what you all see is just blank entry..
no one know what happen next..
it just the next sheet of your book..
daaa !

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okay! saya terasa..
kitai oh..
macam pedas ulu hati..
tapi.. tapi.. tapi..
ah.. forget it..
it not important anyway..
hahahahahaha~

damn la!
i'm only responsible for
what i say.. not for what
you understand..
fuck you sensitivity !!!

damn! damn! damn! you..
FULLSTOP ! posa wei posa..
oh.. okay :3

mana sudah aku?
sambung cerita pasal my best friend la kn..
jap.. ingat.. ingat.. ingat..

BEST FRIEND - PART II

this time..
it his story story.. when he on form3
form3 tu tingkatan 3 bah kn.. ngam ka?
okay2 .. aku pun malas mo bullshit di sini...
continue brain.. please continue..
he said to me that not much to tell..
only few kunun.. that he remember..

that the time when he goes out with his friend..
as always.. cycling to mosque.. (rajin oh)
it happen to fast dia bilang..
he suppose to came home at 9 o'clock..
that the promise he make with his dad everyday..
everyday and every time he went out...

but.. that time..
he forgot with the promise he had made..
because to engrossed with his friend..
not doing bad stuff.. you know.. just smoking..
"if my father know i'm smoking.. i would be dead right now" he said..
it already 11 o'clock.. he start to panic..
so he took his bicycle...and went home..
but on the way back.. he start to notice..
there always 1 car that follow him...
he knew it was his dad... "i'm dead" he said..
but he just relieved that his dad dun saw him smoking..

but the the true chaos is no there..
it start when he take a first step into the house..
without any warning.. flying kick was a greet for him..
it was from his older brother... and 1 punch from his brother..
2nd brother la.. (xtau mo panggil apa dalam bi)..
he been beat up with no mercy..
until when his older brother hang him.. (yang cekik d leher tu ba tapi tgantung)
that the time his father grab then embraced him..
"it was the thing that never happen in my life, that the first
time my father protecting me with all his got"..

that fight end when his 2nd brother ask him..
"are you take a drug" question with punch..
so he wispering his brother..
"i just smoking.. i just scared if father know what i'm doing"
"budu.. lain kali bagi tau lah awal2.. xda la kmi keruyuk ko budu"
that was his brother said...

"it must be painful right? been beat up just like that"
he said to me "nah.. i already used to it.. once before my father work..
it almost everyday we beating by my father"
"crying is our daily rutin for us back there"
he laugh and laugh.. LOL...

okay that all for this entry..
this story is fun.. but i dun know how to telling it..
so it seem boring kan..
plus lagi BI angkang macam longkang..
wakakakakaa...
okay lah.. tata~
next time in power ranges lagi..

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i just had a best best friend before..
damn! i miss him..
he is the one that change my life..
i can't done it without him..
he taught me to much the meaning of life..
he is my idol after all :3
it remind me a story of him..
dun know how to start the story..
hmmm...
let's thinking and remembering
ada ka remembering??
start remember..
must start remember..
let's start remember..
dun stop remember..
oh.. shit what did i imagine??
fuck you dirty mind..
lalalalala~
oi ! posa kik posa..

BEST FRIEND - PART I

he tells me about when his on form2
the year when his family been broke..
that the year that his family be humiliated..
that the year or the darkness rise up...
ohh macam cerita batman kn..
that year his family business fall..
they had to eat porridge for the half year..
he tell me "this is the best part" and smile..
when..
his father tying to buy some ingredient for the porridge...
he dun get enough money to buy it..
"time2 tu lah harga barang naik.. xcukup 10sen"
his father had to cancel buying that "pati ayam"
LOL.. i ask him.. " why did you father search that 10sen and buy it back?"
then he said "already.. but still he can't find it anyway.. "
"i glad now because of this i appreciated 10sen now and known the important of this piece of metal"
"i proud to have a father like him.. even he been humiliated by his sibling and his villagers,
yet he still strong enough to rise my family"

bla.. bla.. bla.. susah ba mo translet bm ke bi..

okay that all for today entry..
next time i will cont this story
bye...

by the way..
family is not just a blood..
it's about who is willing to hold your hand
when you need it the most..
okay tata~~

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monday was fun
junk food was good for you
homework did't exist
girls were't drama queens
guy were't losers
and saying goodbye only meant until tomorrow?

at last..
going where the destiny lead..
making a decision or..
not take any decision also a decision..
ohh.. it confusing..

getting blur.. blur.. blur..
it just 1st day at here..
but i dun know..
what to do~
what to done~
what to act~
what to make~
what to fill~

time is mana...
or time is running out?
it got leak from a big jar of water..
change into drop of wasting time..

typing this also wasting time..
hisshh~
dun know what to do..
maybe...
reactive back facebox can kill some time?
should i ?

hmmm~

thinking and thinking is my worse enemy..
this brain will blow out if to much thinking..
maybe i not a thinking person..
maybe i'm a person can't think..
what to do...

oh my English..

heyyy! so what fuck off la !

better play candy crush at facebox..
but.. but...
i really really really..
dun want to reactive that facebox...
arr......

ohh people
reading the same book twice
knew how it end..
it always had a sad ending
but you keep reading it back to back...
after making mistake again and again..
you keep take it and read it back...
why?
yo ! dun ask me la.. ask them...
who read it twice or more ++
lalalalala~

why dun take an empty journal..
you can write your own story there..
you can make you own ending there...
or if you tired with it..
try reading  a different book..
not the same book as always..

ohh human
keep lying to yourself..
your eyes are blind..
blind with people around you..
your heart are bound..
bound with something you lying..
you ears full with crap...
always follow what people say..
you mouth are silence..
silence from speak of freedom..
oh shit~ it been blew up..
hahahahaha~

when people keep asking..
and asking a same question..
they know how important of you to them..
but when they start does not care..
you will know how important them to you..
no! no! no!
it's not that...
it called karma...
good with good... bad with bad..
smoking is good.. it's effect is bad..
it that contrary to karma?
or it's karma? wakakakaka...
dun know la ..

cacat where are you?
i can't sleep well because of you !!
damn!

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a fly dun stay at flower..
a fly always do stay at shit..
shit is better for the fly..
i'm the fly..
wakakaakaka..
another day has come..
another friend has gone..
never mind ..
i'm already used to it..
better this way..
lalalalalala~

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sort of boy act like this..
just like a wolf..
but.. not all of them..
i think most..
it hard to know which and who..
did i also like that?
.

**i like this urban language**

nah.. people never understand until they get in to it..  it just question in the questions no one get it.. just bunch of people that never listen.. until.. they got them self in to that trouble.. not hoping.. but it seem right after all bluffing it'z it? hmm let me guess wrong ! by the way.. who know what happen next.. because.. the choice only at your own hands wow really? i'm sleepy now..  gud luck for it meaning.. i need to buy some time.. lalalalala~ people never understand what you do for them until you stop doing it okay la tata~

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what wish should i want?
how about..

wishing to be a...
rich man on the planet?
so can buy anything and go any place i want..
got a time machine?
for fixing old mistake that i done..
to be perfect guy in the world?
so making mistake is not my companion..

hmmm....

what a lame wish i got here...
better wishing something better...
like...

wishing that never exist..
wishing that die today..
ohhh...
that better wish for me..
lalalalalala~

but it just a fairytales..
or maybe it just a bed time story..
happy ending story i think...
kakakakak...

but wishing this celcom dun got expired date..
it fucking annoying la...
got credit but expired...
what a cruel torture...
ahh~ biar saja lah...
expired pn expired lah

to 30 group..
stop texting me la..
already quit..
i just want a be normal person..
start a new life i think?
but bro..
why many 30 left and join 77?
better make meeting ASAP..
sorry la bro, kamu, kamu dan kamu
kreadit expired mo reply..
kakakaka...

okay2 let's be serious..
there is no such thing as magic lamp..
or jinny that can grand you any wish..
or wishing star..
that can make you wish come true..

so ashamed..
it ruined my childhood life..
when to think about it..
it never exist for such such thing...

should that mean..
i need to work hard to accomplish that?
should that mean i need to forget my better wish?
it that mean i just dump my dream on a dustbin?
or just dumpster for better opinion..

i glad..
when i knew it..
it make me realize..

i have to put my dream away..
and forget everything that i done so far..
let the life make me become myself..
it just I, me and myself..
nothing can change people...
just yourself or myself i think..

i'm understand now..
making some stupid decision..
does mean it will ruined your life
it just make some unforgettable memories
that can change people..
can make a beautiful moment..

life maybe hard..
but to think about it..
some people may got bad day..
but it not always a bad day for them..
it always come with a great day..
somehow it will come..
just need to be patient...
waiting for something is kind of shitting..
some people that can't wait..
they take an easy way to get it..
but it not worth..
easy come easy go...
like bruno mas punya lagu..
some people believe they can make it..
so they waiting and waiting..
that call hope..
but sometime hope it dangerous thing...
dun want to talk about it..
kakakakak....

anyway...
god dun give someone a hard test..
if god know that person can't handle it..
so dun complain what god doing to you..
ya ya ya..
i know.. i should not complain..
i always smile rite? so i dun complain..
wakakakakaa...

this insomnia are killing me...
that why i just keep typing this kind of bullshit..
ohh~ eyes why?
why you not fucking sleep...
your make my brain tired for thinking...
and you make my hand tired for typing...
please go sleep early
so i dun make any nonsense post
on this blog...

okay la...
oi cacat jum tidur...
quit smoking around la!
i should get a haircut after all
kakaakaka..

tata~

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what had i done??
did i been selfish this lately??..
what the fuck i'm doing??
harshly with people around me..
i forgot.. how important people
beside me.. around me..
what a monster with unfeeling..
damn ! look around you loser!!
how many people that you crush their feelings??

okay..i know
i made a mess around..
but.. people always do mistake right?
i know...
make same mistake is the mistake i done..
but.. i'm clueless
i got nothing left..
i lost with my own world..
just hoping i can get better for all this..

i need to clear my mind and
make a possible reason...
so when i away from here..
i still got a reason to came back...
oh god.. give me some clue
and another reason..

maybe i should be happy awhile..
it been postponed.. so this the third time for postponed
maybe this is the my last chance
just hopping for this SoooooOGT call me
and offer me some damn job.. anything..
just reply my email la damn!
SoooooOGT please give me some damn! damn! answer
i just got 2 week additional for your answer


burn!! burn!! ohh yeahh burn please...

sometime people are nice and
you can tell.. they are good people..
sometime good people can turn to jerk too and
you can call they bad people..
so all people are bad? so all people are nice?
so all people are jerk? so all people are good?
so all people are the same?
okay then... judge them
label all people you know...
let me advise you...
dun just judge they by your eyes...
or brain.. you still  99% dun know the real them..



ohh -_-
what the fuck with my post before ..
it seem to harshly...
okay lah.. i need to smile again..

fake smile is better kn cacat?
btw sorry..
tata~